God, I hate Scott and Andrea right now. Andrea finally has a free day in which bicycling isn't getting in the way, and I was commenting about how we hardly ever go to eachothers houses. I was really looking forward to doing something with her today, but that bitch has to go and bring Scott home with her. Are friends crap to her now? I guess so. She spends every waking moment with Scott. She can't spare a few hours for me? Even today, she told me that she and Scott are together about 3 times every week, and doing God knows what. I don't have the heart or the nerve to tell her that she's shutting me out. If I never say anything, though, will things get better or worse? God, I wish they would just break-up so things can get back to what they should be.

This one's definately me...



I wish this one was me...

She said I'd find love soon, but I think I already have. Not just idol teen infatuation, but full-blown love. And I wish Jeremy felt the same way. Hell, I don't even think he "likes" likes me, but a girl can dream. Oh god, how a girl can dream...

I've started to wonder what qualifies as love. Does it have to be mutual? I know it wasn't when Bre and Jeremy were going out, but was it love then? Or just infatuation? But if their mere presence lifts your heart in ways you've never felt before, that's got to be love, right? Garg, I love not knowing, but enjoying their company, free from pressure. I just wish Scott, Andrea, Bre, Jeremy, and I could all hand out happily together. Jeremy can't stand to be with Bre or Scott, and for good reason. Bre doesn't like Andrea, because she took Scott from her. I'm happy to be with all of them, but, of course, no one cares about that...